"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated."
You know how sometimes you wake up and before your feet even hit the floor you have this sense of impending doom about the day? You dread taking those first steps to the shower because you just know that no matter how hard you scrub with the scrumptious sweet pea suds and pretty pink loofah the hint of stagnant melancholy will linger about you for the next 24 hours. You know the kind of day I’m talking about…those crappy days in grade school when your best friend was absent and you had to eat your lunch all by yourself…the day that nobody was standing at the bottom of the monkey bars in awe at your latest trick or waiting to catch you if you should fall.
Yep…everyone’s had that kind of day and at 30, as ridiculous as it seems, I’m having one today.
I’m missing my person. My person who laughs at all my stupid jokes and thinks I’m far more hysterical than I actually am. My person who seems to make colors brighter, songs sweeter and hours shorter. My person who surprises me for absolutely no reason at all when I don’t even deserve it; my person who can, without a word, just look at me in that knowing way that says “Me too” or “I’m right here and going nowhere” and let me know without a shadow of a doubt that I am loved. My person whose laugh permeates every molecule of air around us enough to seep into my pores and give me the warm fuzzies all day; my person who has come to feel like a missing corner piece to the puzzle of my life…my person who plays an integral part in completing the big, crazy picture on the lid of the box. My person with a million and one stories to tell that I know I’ll never grow tired of and the person I want to write new stories with. My person who looks through patient eyes and sees me so much better than I could ever see myself; my person who admires my strengths and tries their best to overlook my weaknesses…my person who teaches me something new and interesting every day whether it be about myself, the world or some random fact from out of nowhere…my person who is so amazing and solid that they make me want to be a better person. My person who makes everything easy and new. My person who has the inner fortitude to match their outer strength and who lives their life to the fullest regardless of circumstance. My person who lights up the entire room when they enter and who leaves behind a darker, empty space when they exit. My person who constantly leaves me in awe at how remarkable they are…my person who is all the wonderful things that I adore about so many people I love all rolled into one. Yep, I’m missing my person today…my noble, striking, extremely complex and challenging enigma of a person that makes every single moment of every single day better.
So, as I sad sack around today missing my person, wallow with me while listening to these:
Rosie Thomas – “Since You’ve Been Around”
LeAnn Rimes - "What I Cannot Change"
Joshua Radin – “The Fear You Won’t Fall”
The Weepies – “World Spins Madly On”
Ben Taylor – “How Can I Tell You”
Crystal Gayle – “Don’t It Make My Brown Eyes Blue”
Avril Lavigne - "When You're Gone"
Corinne Bailey Rae - "Like A Star"
Don McLean - "And I Love You So"
Ben Harper - "Another Lonely Day"
Dusty Springfield - "I Just Don't Know What To Do With Myself"
Norah Jones - "The Nearness of You"
Adele - "To Make You Feel My Love"
Jack Johnson - "Better Together"
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10 comments:
thank you, thank you for this beautiful, powerful post. your words and the music tell a story that touched me, especially right now. i'm about to turn 30 and going through something similar. just wanted to say hello and thanks.
For pouring your heart out and sharing something special I thank you. The saddest thing is that we can't all have a person but you are lucky to have found yours.
Are you familiar with "Of Missing Persons" by Jackson Browne? Great, sad song, as most of his are. He wrote it to Inara George when her father Lowell George of Little Feat died in 1980+/-. Inara grew up to be the Bird of the group The Bird and the Bee.
To my favorite writer...Thank you
See you soon
Awww! You can't get home soon enough.
Don´t know who you are, came upron your blog as I was looking for a song on hypem.com. You just made me cry ;) I found my person and you managed to capture everything I feel in this post. Anyway, thanks for giving me the best start of my day possible here i sunny Stockhom, Sweden.
There may be nothing better than tears of joy so from all the way over here in the states, I wish you a beautiful day full of the best things possible in the company of your person.
I haven't found my person yet but when/if I do I hope they love me half this much. This was nice thanks.
A friend of mine sent me a link to this post and told me it was the sweetest thing ever. She was right.
Thank you so much for posting this. My person and I had to say goodbye to each other for 3 months and it's already hard....this made me feel better.
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